Saturday, October 04, 2008
@9:40 PM
Life has never been more idle than what it is now. Finding myself waking up every other weekday to a boring routine. And it's even more torturous to go through miniature cycles of that same boredom when duty 2hr shifts. Itz literally boredom within boredom. Along comes idleness, unless one can refute that sleeping time off in a guardroom and stoning plus standing at one spot with a load on your shoulder is something significant and filled with activity. If given a chance to turn idleness into productivity, i'd gladly comply. But there's simply no room for that. This is so bleak =(
A conversation yesterday made me realize how out of contact i am with the current affairs. Spent too much time memorising some stuff which i deem crap, but is essential to my job. Had been living in the procrastinatory state of excusing myself from the papers, thinking that they can wait; that memorising crap comes first, cuz i'd be tested on 'em. Really hate embarrassing myself when it comes to such dialogues. Wish i could get over and done with it, and move on with more pertinent matters.
Idle is not all bad though. I'm appreciating the relatively stress-free life i'm leading now, and the juicy weekends which spruce it up. Have been setting a few goals to see me through the next 1.5 years. Things would change, but i'd try to say true to my goals.
" Don't let the things around you affect you."
" Even if u're in shit, there's always something to learn. Spot the flaws in others, and learn not to repeat them yourself."
" You gonna be shy forever?"
Life goes on. I shall find more time to spend with some friends who are keen to meet up. Uni life beckons ever so appealingly at the end of the long stretch of road with opened doors, though nobody knows what lies behing those doors. Oppurtunities? Friendships? Hardship? Argh heck it has gotta be way better than NS.
Finding back the balance in my life.
~Reiz~
It's like a ring to a widow,
light to the blind;
Yet a mirage to a lost traveller,
and a dream to one?
Siat LA